This must be the time of year that I think about trying to fix things. I wish I knew where the inspiration comes from; how to retrieve it when it disappears like morning mist through my fingers.
I had pasta tonight for supper. No veggies, just Smart Balance, salt, pepper, and the fake cheese that comes in the Kraft macaroni and cheese box. Yuck. I eat a bowl, then when I'm done I feel like crap. Not satiated, not nourished, just like crap.
It is time for bed now, so maybe illumination will come to me in my slumber. This shouldn't be this hard, this eating like a normal person. Why do I have to make it so hard??
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hey welcome back mom!
ReplyDeletejust remember to try to focus on positive things.. I mean not that you can't talk about negative feelings, but try to end with a positive thought maybe? if you just write about how miserable you are, you will continue to feel miserable.
..maybe you should write in the mornings instead of the evenings? then you'll be starting fresh each day, and writing goals for the day in the morning might make you more motivated to stick to them. confessing at the end of the day just seems like beating yourself up, which is not productive.
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Thanks Rachel. You're right, of course! That is a good plan, which I will implement in the morning.
ReplyDeleteI like your new "name," btw. ;)